Survey.

Ever since survey started.. I've been repeatedly saying this to the people I've approached.

"Hi. I'm a final year pharmacy student from IMU and this is my final year research project. We're actually conducting a survey to find out what is your perception on chinese medicine. So can I please take a little bit of your time and get you to fill in this questionnaire for me? Thankew. Thankew so much."

To those that refuse to even stop and listen to me. I would smile politely and say thankew. But I'd be cursing under my breath. =.=

And to those who hesitate. LOL. I would bug them while they hesitate to stop and listen or to just walk away from me. I'll go "Only 5 minutes of your time. Only 5 minutes." and in the end they would USUALLY give in and fill in the questionnaire for me. Hehehe.

I sound desperate?

YEAH. I AM DESPERATE. =.=

to the extent that the team mates and I have been called STALKERS. XD

But heeyyy. I appreciate every single one of my respondent.

and I appreciate everyone that is willing to go the extra mile for my team mates and I in helping us in this survey. Thank you. =)

p/s: Tomorrow is another day. Fingers crossed I get the numbers I want. And DOCTORS.. pllllleeeaaasssseeeeeee be kind to me and fill in my questionnaire for me.. PLLLLEEEAAAASSSSSSSSEEEEEE... I'm desperately in need of doctors. =(

-1 Ling-

18072010.

I'll walk back. When the sun sets. Go home. Alone.

Yeah. I will.

* Just something I wanna write down for myself. Don't bother. =) *

-1 Ling-

14072010

You said: Life's not been fair to me.

I said: You've never been fair to me.

Period.

*Morning blues.*

Lil Things. =)

So I posted this status on facebook: Can I have a sunflower to make my day?

And I was surprised at what appeared on my wall. Happily surprised. =)

Thankew so much girls. =) It did make my day.

Hahahahahaha. This one made me laugh. It's so cute and innocent. XD

Thankew Brinjal. =)

Taulah. You have good skills. You have it done in a few minutes and all. Amat pandai. XD

Thankew. It made my day. =)

-1 Ling-

13062010 1533

Lots of people call me a bookworm or a nerd cause of my love to read.

Haha. Sadly only the love for reading fictions and nothing that is factual.

Somehow. Words give me room to imagine and to feel.

I always prefer reading a book to watching a movie. It's just different. Haha. I know a lot of people just cannot understand that.

Call me freaky.. but words always have a big impact on me and yes.. I'm sensitive to words.

So what have I been reading lately.

The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks and Change of Heart by Jodi Picoult.

The Last Song is another typical Sparks' novel but owh well. I'm wan ling and wan ling loves stories like this. XD Not really my favourite one from Sparks. There're others that moved me more. This one's just ok. Anyway, the movie is coming out in July. I would really love to see if the rendition of the movie fits what is described in the book and if Miley carried the character of Ronnie well enough. And to see if the passion and love that were so nicely described by words can be found in the movie. Still reading Change of Heart and i'm finding it very interesting. 'Would you agree for the heart of your husband's and child's murderer to be transplanted into your only child left?' hmm. What say you?

Haha. Random. I haven't started working on the post that David wants me to. On the way la har, on the way. XD

-1 Ling-

30 days.

I'm home. =) not home in Penang but in Vista.

It has been 30 days in Taiwan. Not too long. Not too short either.

It's just nice. As I'm starting to miss the things and people I care for in Malaysia.. It's time to come home. And it was long enough for us to bond with our fellow seniors in Taiwan. This will be a pleasant memory. I'm sure. =)

30 days. There's so much to blog about. But I just don't know where to start.

The others have been constantly keeping a diary throughout this 30 days.

But me being me only managed to keep it for like a week plus. =.=

30 days. It made me realize a lot of things. About the people around me. About a different culture. About how to deal with things. And most of all.. about myself. Changed my perspective towards quite a lot of things and people I guess. Made me understand myself more too. I'm not what I think I am.. Sometimes.

30 days. We didn't manage to cover the whole Taiwan, mostly cause we're working in the hospital for the first 3 weeks. But it was also that 3 weeks that got us bonded to our fellow seniors. Playing badminton with them. Having dinner together. Having them bring us around Hualien. Talking to them and understanding their culture and having them understand ours. And being pampered by them. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts, dear seniors.

30 days. It showed me that my family is still the one that I will turn to. Mum sent me emails everyday. And when I have internet connection I chat everyday on MSN with her and dad. And there're friends whom I miss dearly, whom I felt like sharing everything with. You know who you are. Hugs. =)

Hahaha. Realized that I didn't mention about Taiwan at all. XD

Maybe next time. =)

-1 Ling-

Post EOS.

Phew. Sem 6 EOS. I thought that's like one of my worst EOS in IMU.

Was it just me or what? =.=

baahh.. Now that it's over and nothing can be done.. except to wait and to hope for the best..

I'll just chill while I can.. =)

To think back.. this whole study break and EOS has been kind of hell-ish for me..

Partially cause of the stress and cause of the emotional turmoil that I was in.

Talk about bad timing. But owh well. Shit always happens at the wrong time. You have no choice but to face it. Sigh.

But I'm glad that there are always friends. The awesome people to help me through it all.

The library study gang. The lame people. hahaha. Thankew for answering my queries and also for the company to study together. Quoting a few lame people..

Brinjal: 这个不用背的啦..懂一点懂一点就好了..

Wei Ping: Whatcha say. What do you want from me. Diam laahhh.

David, everyday at dinner time: Wanling.. Don't use plastic bags.. You imagine if one day everybody take one.. after study break.. * owwhhkkaaaayyy dave. I've quit using plastic bags. *

KeanPing- The hamster who always have seizure attacks. Thankew for the Arsenal story. XD

Joni. Mc. KayX. Thankew for being there to listen to me rant and complain. Hugs.

Lx and Cs. Thankew for the texts. =)

Smugface. Thankew for the specially delivered green tea frap 2 nights prior to EOS. =)

Yuxuan. Thankew for calling all the way from HongKong just to wish me luck for my exam and hear me rant about how bad I did. gosh. I think. I whine a lot when I talk to you. =.=

and..

You. I know you won't be reading this.. but still.. There's so much I wanna say.. but I'll just put it in simple words here. Thankew for being there for me when I needed someone. I do hope you'll be ok soon. =)

So. That aside.. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts.

Uhm.. I'm currently in Penang stuffing myself with good food that I have been deprived of during the 3 weeks of study break and exam. XD

I'm enjoying the company of my family to the max especially mum who is now more like a friend and a listener to me. =) and did i mention how cute it is to see dad get so excited and happy just because I'm home. XD

I'm currently reading 'The Last Lecture' by Randy Pausch. Hopefully I'll be inspired some way or other. Hahaha.

I'm also doing a teeny bit of googling to find out more about taiwan. =) I'll be flying off in like a few days. Wow. doesn't seem real. x)

I'm also trying to get over certain things and get out of a mess that i sort of self invited myself into. So.. yeah. Bear with my emoness. Haha. I'm trying to stay strong with a smile on my face. =)

That's pretty much all this time around. Will update more when I am back from Taiwan or maybe when I'm in Taiwan. If time permits. =) Till then. Happy hols peeps and good luck for those having exams. =)

-1 Ling-

1906. 09042010.

I was given hope but denied of a chance right from the beginning..

and yet.. it was hope that kept me holding on.. tightening my grip.. how ironic..

But right now.. I feel that I've lost everything that's worth fighting for..

There's nothing else i can do right? I don't have a choice, do i?

I hate the fact that life sucks sometimes..

and life gives you shit sometimes..

I need time. Lots of it.

* ineedtovent. *

-1 Ling-

31032010. 1927.

1. Words- They mean a lot to me.. So.. if you don't mean it.. Don't say it.. I might just take it too seriously when I shouldn't have. Don't make me empty promises.

2. I have high expectations. On myself and on people that I care for. Too high that I get crushed when you or me, myself don't meet it. I'm still in the process of learning to not expect that much.

3. I am fragile. Even when I think I am growing to be stronger, tougher.. I am still fragile.. I'm still the same old wanling that cries when she gets hurt.

4. When I say I care, it also means that you mean a lot to me. I don't expect you to be there for me all the time.. But at least.. don't just walk away from me. I don't like to be left hanging.

5. I'm just a girl.. that is foolish enough to believe in fairy tales, happy endings and beautiful words even though I've been let down again and again. I need to be reminded.. that reality is harsh.

* If you think that i'm damn emo right now.. Yes. I am.. Sorry.. But allow me to vent. *

-1 Ling-

1619. 27032009.

Something random that i would like to pen down before i let it pass again. =)

I was waiting for the lifts at Vista and there's this Caucasian guy who's.. I think at my father's age.. walked into the lobby with luggages and all.

When the lift doors opened and the people inside stepped out..

I waited for him to get in first..

But instead.. He smiled and gestured for me to go first..

I thought: Caucasians are different. xp

So I smiled politely and said thank you,

stepping into the lift first with him following behind..

Dragging his luggages into the lift..

"Can you press 15 for me please.. thank you.."

Again, I smiled and said welcome.

We started chatting.. with him asking me: "So how are you today?"

"I'm good." I replied, smiling.

*Instantly.. I thought of you. How you used to always ask me 'how are you?'.. and to come think of it.. now that you don't ask me that often anymore.. i'm missing it.. haha..*

So the conversation went on with him asking me how's studies.

"I'm doing ok.. coping.. "

"That's the most important thing.. Trying to cope even when things get hard.. " he said with an encouraging smile..

I would love to continue the conversation.. but the lift doors opened at my floor. I have to say goodbye.. =)

"I'll see you around.."

"Ok.. Have a nice day.."

I thought that was a nice and friendly encounter.. Isn't it? =)

A stranger he is. But that managed to make me smile and brightened my day.

***

On another note, I got this a few days ago. It came all the way from Australia..

Thankew Bernie. =)

Come Monday and it's the start of a challenging week. Good luck, wanling!! =)

And now for the time being.. Back to reading guidelines. XD

Till then.

-1 Ling-

0132. 25032010.

I've been busy busy busy.

With what exactly.. I don't know..

But its like everything came together..

and one has to be taken care of after another..

I'm not really complaining.. I guess I need a lil distraction right now..

and work seems to do the trick..

March is indeed a hectic month.. almost suffocating..

With the amount of work to juggle..

and the ups and downs of emotions..

It does drain me sometimes.. But i'm not defeated.. yet. Haha.

Owh well.. Life goes on.. I'll survive. =)

Through it all.. I'm actually glad to have little little things make my day..

like this one. =)

Thankew. =)

*Sometimes I can't help but wonder..

what's on your mind when you wander down that quiet corridor..*

Just ranting before the next round of work come my way and i have to work late into the night again. When i'll be so sleep deprived and i'll start walking around like a zombie again. haha.

Till then. =)

-1 Ling-

Random.

Had a one day Hospital Visit to HUKM for my Cancer Chemotherapy Module on Wednesday..

Was at the oncology ward for the morning..

The lab partner and I were lucky enough to be given the chance to participate in the grand ward round.. =)

We saw several patients and one told us this when we interviewed her..

" 患上癌症就要勇敢地去接受它。面对它。解决它。然后放下它。"

That is something my mum always tells me when I'm down..

when I face challenges.. when I'm in trouble..

Honestly, I can't help but miss her. =)

* You. Putting myself in your shoes.. Seeing through your eyes..

I understand how you feel.. *

Work has been piling up lately.. and there are times when i feel like i need a break..

Hmm.. That will come soon.. And i'm looking forward to it.. =)

Till then.

Something to share. =)

-1 Ling-

Thoughts.

There are some things in life that are just meant to be..

but what happens when you just wanna go against it?

I don't wanna give up just yet.. really.. I'm not ready to just let it go yet..

Aih.. I'm caught in the middle.. rite? hmm..

A familiar smile after a long day is always comforting.. yes?

Haha. Thankew.

-1Ling-

THAT moment. When i'm home.. =)

owh dear. my blog is being neglected once again.

i can see it dying off. aiihh..

Anyway. That aside. I'm back in Penang for a week of CNY holidays which... ends tomorrow.

I arrived right at my doorstep at 8.30am on Saturday and was greeted by a bright but soft "hello" from somewhere above me. I looked up and saw a smiling Mum looking down from the balcony. I laughed and said:"开门啦.." That was all it took to make me laugh and to tell me that I'm HOME. =)

Jason left after dropping me off and exchanging a brief hello with my mum. After the gate was opened.. Guess what were the first words that my mum said? "ei..你的handbag 很美hor.." LOL. Then.. it was followed with "你看我做的扇子美吗？美叻.." LOL. and it went on and on with her telling me what kind of decoration she has done.. What has she done to my room.. What kind of cookies she had bought for CNY.. Her voice and gentle pats on my arm accompanied me from the gate to the front door and all the way to my room.. I thought she was cute and funny.. Haha. I felt the warmth of home instantly..

Heaving my heavy luggage up the stairs.. I think I woke Han up. He limped out of his room still rubbing his eyes and stretching. "Heyylloooo parasite!!" I greeted. I frowned at the sight of his ankle and i remembered mum told me the night before that he sprained his ankle while playing badminton in college. Anyway.. the parasite turned his gaze to my direction, grunted something and headed back into his room. LOL. That is Han. Sigh.

Then it was dad that muttered "Hmm.. What time did you leave KL?" After the Q&A. I was left alone with my bed. hahahaha. my queen size bed. which i flopped on it instantly and sighed in bliss. This is what home feels like.

Honestly. I've always loved the moment when I reach BM and I see my family. It's always fun to see what kind of reaction they would give me.. mum especially.. =) she never fail to amuse me. Call me weird. but hey. It is always THIS moment that I love the most when I'm home.

-1 Ling-

Just updates. =)

Yup. Has been a long time since my last update.

Have been up to so much stuff recently..

and i'm kinda lazy to put them into words.. haha.

so.. i shall let the pictures do the talking..

some time ago.. i went to Cameron Highlands with a bunch of friends..

and though I've been to Cameron Highlands for sooo many times..

I just never got tired of it..

i think it's the flowers and the green tea plantations..

and the awesome company..

It was indeed a very enjoyable trip for me..

with lots of fun and laughter.. =)

and.. i bought myself sunflowers! =D

somehow.. they have the ability to make me feel happy. haha.

then there was the class dinner..

i'm just glad that everything turned out to be ok.. =)

there're so many people to thank...

you know who you are.. =)

everyone of you. yup. you. i thank you from the bottom of my heart. =)

when b107 comes together.. anything can happen huh?

and then there was open day..

which i worked as a campus guide..

bringing people around.. =)

and it was a busy week of portfolio and workshop.

this weekend..

and eaaarrrrllllyyyy this morning.. we went to ajimal to watch football. XD

Arsenel vs. Man U. And while the guys were watching football..

these two comical fellas were playing with kx's psp and feeding each other roti tissue. XD

Look at the small screen. =.= But woohoo! Man. U won. XD

* You. Thankew for the talk and the time spent.

I think.. i now have a word to describe you. =).

Till the next time i hear from you.. take care. hugz. *

-1 Ling-

S6 W2- I'm allergic to figures and equations!!

Sem 6 week 2. And there's so much to do already.

It is certainly a challenging semester where there's so much to juggle.

I think I need major adjustments and adaptations to bring my wandering mind back to uni and work. I'm just too lazy to budge.

Besides projects, assignments and all.. I am seriously worried about CPK.

Friends who know me well enough would know how much i hate math and how much i suck at math. I seriously do. =.=

I'm allergic to figures and equations!!

And i don't really like graphs. =.=

Awesome huh? Tell me how am i going to survive CPK?

I'm already losing grasp even at the beginning. sigh.

But i'll try.. to learn to not hate it that much and perhaps.. like it..

though chances are near to nil.

Aih. I'll cope.

Anyway.. Off to the hills for the weekend! Yay-ness. =D

I'll worry about every other thing when i get back!

For now. Think awesome tea plantation view.

Think pretty red roses everywhere. Think sweet strawberry desserts.

Think fresh air. Think fun and laughter. =D

* whataya want? *

-1 Ling-

2010. =)

I don't really like crowded and noisy places.

So.. this year.. new year's eve was spent with some friends.. having a simple dinner together.

And a gathering at wei ping's place just to kill time until 2330. LOL.

There were lame jokes. All sorts of crap. Funny and silly games.

At 11.30. We walked to the park and saw lots of cars by the roadside.

I thought there was some function going on at the stadium. But NO.

I think all the cars were parked there cause people are at the top of the hill at the park..

waiting for the fireworks. I really didn't expect such a crowd to be there.

The fireworks were seen bursting at the skyline at 12 sharp.

I stood looking at those balls of red. orange. yellow and green with the occasional gaze towards my phone to read the texts that i was receiving. Banyak.

And i thought of you.

Then. that was it. habis. We lingered around a little longer.

Took a few photos and walked back to vista.

Earlier on in the evening, I told smugface I wanna have cheese naan at 12 to welcome the new year. LOL. and I did!!

ok. I didn't. I had roti cheese instead. And it wasn't at 12 sharp. XD

But still. It was my first meal in 2010 and it was good. I was a happy girl after that. XD

Sounds boring? Not at all. It's not something big or glamorous but it was certainly something i enjoyed. =) In fact. i think it was the simplicity of it all that i like.

Even supper at a mamak stall with a few close friends and a nice chat would have been something nice to welcome the new year. =)

The flower that fell from the tree right in front of me at the park.

And i put it in my hair. =D

Happy 2010 peeps!

Yup. That was how i spent my new year.

I wonder how did you spend yours? =)

-1 Ling-