13062010 1533

Lots of people call me a bookworm or a nerd cause of my love to read.

Haha. Sadly only the love for reading fictions and nothing that is factual.

Somehow. Words give me room to imagine and to feel.

I always prefer reading a book to watching a movie. It's just different. Haha. I know a lot of people just cannot understand that.

Call me freaky.. but words always have a big impact on me and yes.. I'm sensitive to words.

So what have I been reading lately.

The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks and Change of Heart by Jodi Picoult.

The Last Song is another typical Sparks' novel but owh well. I'm wan ling and wan ling loves stories like this. XD Not really my favourite one from Sparks. There're others that moved me more. This one's just ok. Anyway, the movie is coming out in July. I would really love to see if the rendition of the movie fits what is described in the book and if Miley carried the character of Ronnie well enough. And to see if the passion and love that were so nicely described by words can be found in the movie. Still reading Change of Heart and i'm finding it very interesting. 'Would you agree for the heart of your husband's and child's murderer to be transplanted into your only child left?' hmm. What say you?

Haha. Random. I haven't started working on the post that David wants me to. On the way la har, on the way. XD

-1 Ling-

30 days.

I'm home. =) not home in Penang but in Vista.

It has been 30 days in Taiwan. Not too long. Not too short either.

It's just nice. As I'm starting to miss the things and people I care for in Malaysia.. It's time to come home. And it was long enough for us to bond with our fellow seniors in Taiwan. This will be a pleasant memory. I'm sure. =)

30 days. There's so much to blog about. But I just don't know where to start.

The others have been constantly keeping a diary throughout this 30 days.

But me being me only managed to keep it for like a week plus. =.=

30 days. It made me realize a lot of things. About the people around me. About a different culture. About how to deal with things. And most of all.. about myself. Changed my perspective towards quite a lot of things and people I guess. Made me understand myself more too. I'm not what I think I am.. Sometimes.

30 days. We didn't manage to cover the whole Taiwan, mostly cause we're working in the hospital for the first 3 weeks. But it was also that 3 weeks that got us bonded to our fellow seniors. Playing badminton with them. Having dinner together. Having them bring us around Hualien. Talking to them and understanding their culture and having them understand ours. And being pampered by them. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts, dear seniors.

30 days. It showed me that my family is still the one that I will turn to. Mum sent me emails everyday. And when I have internet connection I chat everyday on MSN with her and dad. And there're friends whom I miss dearly, whom I felt like sharing everything with. You know who you are. Hugs. =)

Hahaha. Realized that I didn't mention about Taiwan at all. XD

Maybe next time. =)

-1 Ling-

Post EOS.

Phew. Sem 6 EOS. I thought that's like one of my worst EOS in IMU.

Was it just me or what? =.=

baahh.. Now that it's over and nothing can be done.. except to wait and to hope for the best..

I'll just chill while I can.. =)

To think back.. this whole study break and EOS has been kind of hell-ish for me..

Partially cause of the stress and cause of the emotional turmoil that I was in.

Talk about bad timing. But owh well. Shit always happens at the wrong time. You have no choice but to face it. Sigh.

But I'm glad that there are always friends. The awesome people to help me through it all.

The library study gang. The lame people. hahaha. Thankew for answering my queries and also for the company to study together. Quoting a few lame people..

Brinjal: 这个不用背的啦..懂一点懂一点就好了..

Wei Ping: Whatcha say. What do you want from me. Diam laahhh.

David, everyday at dinner time: Wanling.. Don't use plastic bags.. You imagine if one day everybody take one.. after study break.. * owwhhkkaaaayyy dave. I've quit using plastic bags. *

KeanPing- The hamster who always have seizure attacks. Thankew for the Arsenal story. XD

Joni. Mc. KayX. Thankew for being there to listen to me rant and complain. Hugs.

Lx and Cs. Thankew for the texts. =)

Smugface. Thankew for the specially delivered green tea frap 2 nights prior to EOS. =)

Yuxuan. Thankew for calling all the way from HongKong just to wish me luck for my exam and hear me rant about how bad I did. gosh. I think. I whine a lot when I talk to you. =.=

and..

You. I know you won't be reading this.. but still.. There's so much I wanna say.. but I'll just put it in simple words here. Thankew for being there for me when I needed someone. I do hope you'll be ok soon. =)

So. That aside.. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts.

Uhm.. I'm currently in Penang stuffing myself with good food that I have been deprived of during the 3 weeks of study break and exam. XD

I'm enjoying the company of my family to the max especially mum who is now more like a friend and a listener to me. =) and did i mention how cute it is to see dad get so excited and happy just because I'm home. XD

I'm currently reading 'The Last Lecture' by Randy Pausch. Hopefully I'll be inspired some way or other. Hahaha.

I'm also doing a teeny bit of googling to find out more about taiwan. =) I'll be flying off in like a few days. Wow. doesn't seem real. x)

I'm also trying to get over certain things and get out of a mess that i sort of self invited myself into. So.. yeah. Bear with my emoness. Haha. I'm trying to stay strong with a smile on my face. =)

That's pretty much all this time around. Will update more when I am back from Taiwan or maybe when I'm in Taiwan. If time permits. =) Till then. Happy hols peeps and good luck for those having exams. =)

-1 Ling-

1906. 09042010.

I was given hope but denied of a chance right from the beginning..

and yet.. it was hope that kept me holding on.. tightening my grip.. how ironic..

But right now.. I feel that I've lost everything that's worth fighting for..

There's nothing else i can do right? I don't have a choice, do i?

I hate the fact that life sucks sometimes..

and life gives you shit sometimes..

I need time. Lots of it.

* ineedtovent. *

-1 Ling-

31032010. 1927.

1. Words- They mean a lot to me.. So.. if you don't mean it.. Don't say it.. I might just take it too seriously when I shouldn't have. Don't make me empty promises.

2. I have high expectations. On myself and on people that I care for. Too high that I get crushed when you or me, myself don't meet it. I'm still in the process of learning to not expect that much.

3. I am fragile. Even when I think I am growing to be stronger, tougher.. I am still fragile.. I'm still the same old wanling that cries when she gets hurt.

4. When I say I care, it also means that you mean a lot to me. I don't expect you to be there for me all the time.. But at least.. don't just walk away from me. I don't like to be left hanging.

5. I'm just a girl.. that is foolish enough to believe in fairy tales, happy endings and beautiful words even though I've been let down again and again. I need to be reminded.. that reality is harsh.

* If you think that i'm damn emo right now.. Yes. I am.. Sorry.. But allow me to vent. *

-1 Ling-

1619. 27032009.

Something random that i would like to pen down before i let it pass again. =)

I was waiting for the lifts at Vista and there's this Caucasian guy who's.. I think at my father's age.. walked into the lobby with luggages and all.

When the lift doors opened and the people inside stepped out..

I waited for him to get in first..

But instead.. He smiled and gestured for me to go first..

I thought: Caucasians are different. xp

So I smiled politely and said thank you,

stepping into the lift first with him following behind..

Dragging his luggages into the lift..

"Can you press 15 for me please.. thank you.."

Again, I smiled and said welcome.

We started chatting.. with him asking me: "So how are you today?"

"I'm good." I replied, smiling.

*Instantly.. I thought of you. How you used to always ask me 'how are you?'.. and to come think of it.. now that you don't ask me that often anymore.. i'm missing it.. haha..*

So the conversation went on with him asking me how's studies.

"I'm doing ok.. coping.. "

"That's the most important thing.. Trying to cope even when things get hard.. " he said with an encouraging smile..

I would love to continue the conversation.. but the lift doors opened at my floor. I have to say goodbye.. =)

"I'll see you around.."

"Ok.. Have a nice day.."

I thought that was a nice and friendly encounter.. Isn't it? =)

A stranger he is. But that managed to make me smile and brightened my day.

***

On another note, I got this a few days ago. It came all the way from Australia..

Thankew Bernie. =)

Come Monday and it's the start of a challenging week. Good luck, wanling!! =)

And now for the time being.. Back to reading guidelines. XD

Till then.

-1 Ling-

0132. 25032010.

I've been busy busy busy.

With what exactly.. I don't know..

But its like everything came together..

and one has to be taken care of after another..

I'm not really complaining.. I guess I need a lil distraction right now..

and work seems to do the trick..

March is indeed a hectic month.. almost suffocating..

With the amount of work to juggle..

and the ups and downs of emotions..

It does drain me sometimes.. But i'm not defeated.. yet. Haha.

Owh well.. Life goes on.. I'll survive. =)

Through it all.. I'm actually glad to have little little things make my day..

like this one. =)

Thankew. =)

*Sometimes I can't help but wonder..

what's on your mind when you wander down that quiet corridor..*

Just ranting before the next round of work come my way and i have to work late into the night again. When i'll be so sleep deprived and i'll start walking around like a zombie again. haha.

Till then. =)

-1 Ling-